Hello :)
After seemingly getting out of my post-pageant pass out, I woke up feeling refreshed and relaxed...so I thought.
I remembered I had a physical at 10 am and I was faced with the hair raising reality I had come to loathe for 17 years and 3 months....vaccinations. Yikes.
Confident that I had been up to date with all my shots, I hopped in the car and headed over to HealthPartners. Today was a little bittersweet. My favorite doctor, who has been with my family since I moved to my suburb, was transferring to a different practice. I am not good with goodbyes, so I knew that the entire visit was going to be miserable. Thank goodness I was wrong. At least that's what nurse #1 convinced me of. After filling out 3 pages worth of questions and information, I found out that the forms I had just freshly completed weren't necessary since I was not playing any sports. Yay. She continued to tell me that I didn't have to get my meningitis shot because I wasn't going to college this fall! I was ecstatic! Only to be told minutes later that it took several months to kick in so I in fact, would need to get the shot today....and my flu shot. (My mom wanted to kill two birds with one stone). Okay freeze! I had my first senior event right after my appointment, I had to take my yearbook photo with the same photographer who had shot my brothers 2 and 4 years before! I realized that I actually had made it to my senior year, meaning that if I could survive Cretin-Derham's halls, then I could survive one ...(or two) silly little shots...right?
Wrong.
I am ashamed to say I teared up at the thought of that GINORMOUS needle in my arm ( I still request butterfly needles when getting blood drawn...the kind they use on infants). So I convinced everyone that I would come back in a month and get my shots. The doctor presented me with a plan b for my flu shot! It's a nasal spray that last about 2 seconds per nostril, and it really is a piece of cake! That didn't keep my from fits of nervous laughter!
Anyways, finally, about ten minutes later, I had been immunized and we were saying our goodbyes to my doctor..only to find out she would still be within driving distance of us! She was so excited to learn about my recent win, in fact she scooted around in her wheely doctor's chair squeling!
I knew that being at a doctor's office I could finally address something that had been bothering me and was always something I struggled with: my weight/body image.
Believe me, I love who I am, but too many times you will see a stick thin girl idolized over the girl with curves. I am beyond in love with the fact that I will never be a stick, nor do I want to be. But it can be discouraging when you know that sometimes, in your life, because of what you look like, you will be viewed as something that pigeon-holes you into a category you may not want to be in. I can say to the entire pageant world that I am 5'7 and not overweight AT ALL. I have a very healthy BMI and curves that will be here as long as I will! I am so excited to get fit and toned for nationals, but I am even more excited to bring forth a new and realistic definition of beauty. And that is more than skin deep.
Anywho, I headed over to get my senior portraits, I realized I had no idea where I was going...I assumed that they were at my high school, but duhhh these were not "normal" picture day pictures! I looked up the address of the studio, and my mom and I rerouted our destination... only I should have followed my gut,...the pictures were at my school, I ended up running in a few minutes late, super embarrassed. I hate not being on time! But that is what you get for not listening to your gut! :)
The photos turned out beautiful anyways I am told and I am so excited that being a senior entitles you to be able to pick your own yearbook photo! (I always have awkward ones!)
We came home and I had a big bowl of spinach leaves because I wanted to, not because I felt obligated to meet a superficial standard :) and my day was free for blogging and gown searching :)
Moral of today's story? Don't rule out nasal immunizations, love who you are, every single curve, crook and cranny and ALWAYS listen to your gut :)
With love,
Morgan
Countdown to the \^^^^/ 196 days!!!
